Imran’s been out of town again since the last three days. It’s been tiring and trying to say the least. Nonetheless, I’ve come to the conclusion that single mothers definitely deserve that extra pat on their back.
During this time, I’ve been on the verge of tears soooo many times. Amidst everything I feel like I’m walking on my last straws. Maybe I miss the comfort of having Imo around, maybe it’s my monthly friends that are here for the third time in 45 days or simply I’m feeling completely exhausted. Or maybe it’s all of them. I feel like I don’t even want to smile. I don’t want to see anyone, nor talk to anyone.
Least of all, I don’t want to address the clutter growing at my place. The kitchen dishwasher is leaking and the management doesn’t give a beep about it. It’s starting to smell coz the water is leaking under the flooring. The bathroom sink is leaking. I need to clean the washroom, order the mats, do the laundry, put away the clothes from the previous laundry, dust the place and the list just keeps growing.
I went down to complain to the management, she just smiles and lies. I’m exhausted and don’t even want to battle that one.
Eesa is giving major disciplinary problems, but is ever so adorable. He burnt his hands yest(i can’t type out the story right now), and clung on to me and Ayesha like anything. H e just wanted to be held and comforted. He was crying so painfully, i just wanted to do anything to ease out his pain. I felt like crying just coz he was hurting. 😥
Parenting really makes you appreciate everything your parents went through to give you the upbringing you got. I knwo for a fact that gowing up, I put my parent(s) through alot of trouble, May Allah swt reward them abundantly. Ameen
Rabbir hum homma kama rabbayani Sagheera. Rabbighfirlee wali walidaini wa lill momineena yawma yaqoomul hisaab. Ameen.